I'm still here, just been thinking a lot.

So me and my husband have been thinking. And talking. And planning. We are thinking about a move, an intense, pack up your life kind of move. We've made lists: what is important, what we must have. Where do we want Ellie to grow up.

You should know, I'm not from Denver. I'm from Maine. And I've lived a chunk of my adulthood in California. I went to nursing school here in Colorado. And while here, I got me a husband and a kid. I had sort of resigned myself to the fact that I was kind of stuck here. Not that here is bad, it's gorgeous. But I have no family here, except the family I married in to. And there's no real water to speak of, which is hard for an ocean loving gal. So when Mike approached me and said he was ready to make a move, well I was shocked. And then I was elated.
Now I get to go home.

I don't have a lot of nostalgic value for Denver. Except for a couple of really good friends who yes I will certainly cry when I leave, this has never felt like home. We've tried to visualize ourselves in places like northern California, Oregon, Seattle. But with all of my soul searching I've come to realize that home feels like Maine. Portland, Maine. Beautiful, coastal, livable, Portland, Maine.

Surprise!

So nothing is set in stone. We are still deliberating. But this is how we are leaning. We've been talking about this for a while now, and truthfully, the more I think about it, the more excited I am. I have a longing for Maine that is sometimes painful. It's beautiful and friendly and slightly hickish and people that are from there are generally awesome. (ahem). So, most people don't know about this plan until now. And there are certain people that I've put off telling. Mostly because it makes me sad. That part. Certain people, like certain next door neighbors who I love like a sister make me feel too sad to talk about this with. Shoot.

I'm a mover, what can I say? I've lived here for 4 years now and that seems to be my max. I sailed away from Maine over 10 years ago, looking for adventures and new experiences. And now I get to go home. Share my new family with my old family. Feel that cold Atlantic ocean air. Watch my daughter discover all of the magic that Maine has to offer. These are good things. And the future, it's looking pretty shiny right now.

So the goal now is the have the best Colorado summer ever. Because soon we're going to be coastal.