My kid is mobile now. Though it's not exactly crawling per se, it's a mean worm. A worm that can go the distance. And she now has 4 teeth. And she's shooting up like a frickin bean sprout. And she can eat SO MUCH food. And she can say da-da. (Yeah, da-da. Ergh.) And she can (kind of) wave hello.
And so in keeping up with these momentous daily developments, and the fact that she can now eat like a horse, I am trying to figure out what to do about breastfeeding. It's become clear to me that I just can't keep up anymore. Ellie can easily chug an 8 oz bottle, and I watch her try so very hard to get what she needs from mama. It takes her so long with no satisfaction. Which leads me to wonder if we have reached the end of the milk producing road. I know, I know, [nasally voice] "you should breastfeed for at least a year." Ugh. You know what Dr. Sears? You know what La Leche league? You know what Kellymom? Bite me. You try going from patient to patient during the working day driving along with a frickin breastpump attached to you, ever so systematically avoiding mack trucks so they can't peer down at you and get an eyeful. Oh I will not miss the pumping. But I will miss the closeness. And so that's why I haven't completely jumped off the fence yet. Baby steps.
In other news I have made a new friend who lives 5 doors down and has a fricken yoga studio in her house and is all about us getting together to exercise. So I got my tired ass up at 5:55am and met her at her house at 6am. Repeat tomorrow and continuously. I feel like I used my mad jedi skills to manifest her because I have been really struggling with fitting workouts out into this baby laden life of mine. And I'm ready to be ripped. And that brings me back to breastfeeding. I'm feeling ready to have my body back. MY body. Not that I don't love these crazy curves, but they're not mine really. So I don't want to get too attached. They aren't here to stay.
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people keep telling me that babies usually say da-da first because it's easier to say than ma-ma. i think it's going to be the case with izzy too as he says da-da in his babbling, although he clearly has no idea yet what he's saying.
and i totally relate to what your saying about breastfeeding. we've actually started supplementing izzy's last feeding with some formula to make sure he gets enough before he goes to bed as otherwise he wakes up for an extra feeding. i'm planning on sticking it out overall for now, but i definitely feel a little frustrated that i can't supply him with all the milk he needs! it's great you were able to breastfeed her for 7 months!
i can't believe she has 4 teeth already!
i need to see her before she has a whole mouthful!!!
don't you dare feel guilty about stopping breastfeeding. when you can no longer stop producing enough milk to satisfy your babe, time for a switch. your baby will be happier and so will you.
Isn't it crazy how fast they grow. I look at Maia and she amazes me, and I have done this whole thing 2 times before. And, don't you feel so bad when those little teeth come in and they cause so much distress for that poor little baby girl that is in so much pain!!
At least Maia said mama first. Which was actually surprising because she spends a lot more time with her dad than with me. The fact is, though, that most babies do say dada first. Both of my boys did and I hated it, but soon enough she will say mama and your heart will melt.
Maia has been eating a lot of baby food and a lot less formula. In fact, the bottles lately are more for comfort when she's tired than anything. I bought these things called something like baby mum-mum.....anyways whatever they are called, they are great. Easy to eat and she loves being able to feed herself and the best part is, they aren't nearly as messy as biter biscuits. I highly recommend them! I wish we were closer, I would love my little niece to know her auntie! And her cousins, especially Maia. Just imagine how close they could be if we were able to get together more than once a year! Speaking of which, are you coming back next summer when mom gets that cabin again? I really hope so!! Izak didn't really get a chance to spend any time with you last time which of course was not your fault, but he misses you and sometimes I feel bad for him being the oldest, he doesn't get a lot of attention anymore since he is old enough to be more self-sufficient. Sometimes he feels like people don't love him and I assure him we all do but the smaller kids just need more attention because they are so little, but sometimes I can't blame him for feeling that way. You are the only one that claims him as your favorite and you aren't around. Dad would have I bet. I miss him.....Anyways, I love you, big sis!! I hope to see you this year sometime!! You know you always have a baby-proof place to stay in Maine!!
I agree that you shouldn't feel guilty about stopping breastfeeding when you are ready. I have a friend that only does it at bedtime now and in the morning and just stopped the mid day pumping and all. It retains the closeness and gives her some nutrition from breast milk. With that said, I tried that and my milk dried up completely, so I think it's up to your body if it will support such a thing. Good luck. You've done a great job going this far and she'll benefit from it in a huge way.
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