Mike, Ellie and I just enjoyed a much needed weekend away. We went to Keystone and stayed in a fabulous condo and went to the World Music Festival. It was great...so nice to know that there is actually a world outside of our house. But as we enjoyed the weekend I couldn't help but notice how much things had changed for us. At this stage of parenting, there is just so much we can't do. We couldn't bike. Hiking was tricky. I couldn't drink because I'm breastfeeding. Where I would normally be dancing and having a grand old time in the sun at the festival, I found myself hovering in the shade to protect Eleanor's precious, always sleeping head. I remember looking over at Mike, as we sat in our shady spot, him doing a crossword puzzle, and thinking how far away we were from where we were last summer and the things that we did. Truth be told? I was kind of bored.
None of this is to complain. I wouldn't trade anything for Eleanor. I look at her and my heart melts. Even when she's fussy beyond belief and we are at our wit's end...she still lights up my heart. Sometimes she falls asleep on my chest and I sit and notice how my heart could literally burst with love for her. There are no words for that.
But the the differences in our lives are very evident. Our social networks are changing. I'm consistently late. Getting out the door is quite the fiasco. Finding time to workout is tricky at best. Spontaneity is not a word we use around here. Not now anyway.
Soon she will be bigger, sitting upright and taking it all in. She is still so new now. But I really look forward to her excitement for life and all of its new discoveries. There is absolutely nothing boring about that!
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