so close

I'm getting closer, I can feel it.
My pelvis feels like there's a bowling bowl on top of it. My joints are soft and stretchy, which hurts, which makes me look like a waddling duck. My Braxton-Hicks contractions are more frequent. I'm tired. I'm big. I'm SO DARN pregnant.

I'm going to try to labor with no pain meds. Now I'm certainly not closing any doors on pain relief, but epidural free is my intention. Right now. At this non-laboring moment. I want to be able to walk and move around throughout labor. I want to be as active a participant as I can possibly be. Truth be told, I'm feeling nervous. Pretty soon my body is going to be ready to extrapolate a human being from it, through the birth canal, out you know where! I do not know what this will feel like. I know it will hurt. I just hope I can stay centered and go through the pain as it progresses. I'll be counting on Mike to help me. Because he won't pass out. (we spent a lamaze class in the ER after a little fainting episode). I want my birthing ball. I want my mom there. I want our little baby to be just fine throughout the whole process. We are in this together, her and I. I know we can do it. I just have to remember that when the pain is all over, I'm going to have my little baby girl, alive and well, in my arms. I can't wait!